Friday, July 12, 2013

Dazed...

So it's after one in the morning and I'm wide awake.   I have FAILED to update this blog on a regular basis throughout my pregnancy....and now tomorrow, this baby will be here.  Or actually, it's today.  Oh wow.
I'm scheduled for a c-section at noon.  July 12th will officially be my baby's birthday.  That is so weird to think about.   It's been on the calender for two days and it's just so strange to have it all planned ahead of time....like hey, I'm having a baby on Friday - what are you up to?   I worked my last day at job #2 on Wednesday and I worked job #1 today trying to tie up loose ends....not really expecting to be gone 10 days ahead of schedule.

We were all prepared for a VBAC, with consent forms signed and research done and questions asked....until I hit 33 weeks and measured 37 weeks.   As time went on, I got bigger and bigger and continued to measure 4 weeks ahead of schedule.  My doctor felt less and less confident that I could have a successful VBAC because of not only the size of the baby, but the fact that the baby didn't drop down into my pelvis like it's supposed to.   Eventually, we had to realize that my pelvis just isn't gonna cooperate with the giant babies I grow - and we knew we'd be facing a c-section.
This baby is all crammed up under my ribs and it HURTS when it moves around, so I am darn ready to get this baby OUT.   I've been pretty miserable and uncomfortable and feeling DONE for weeks.
No more pregnancies for this mama....this 2nd one was tough.

Today I am 38 weeks and 5 days pregnant and today I measured 43 weeks.  4 days ago I was measuring 42 weeks...so I'm kind of feeling like I have popeye chowing on some spinach growing in this belly of mine.   It's crazyness.
I am oddly calm.  I feel like this is going to be such a different experience then what all happened with Adam.  I'm hoping so anyway.
I have no inkling if this is a boy or a girl....no "feeling" or "intuition" - which kind of makes me laugh because I didn't with Adam either.
The one weird thing is that we live on a cul-de-sac, and this baby will be sharing a birthday with 2 other kids.   What are the odds that out of 10 kids, 3 have the same birthday?   and I also found out it's a wedding anniversary for another neighbor.  So every single family on our court has an event going on tomorrow...ha!

My in-laws arrived tonight so they can stay with Adam.  I'm not quite sure how he will react to all this baby business, but we'll find out very soon.  I think he will end up being a very nurturing big brother - but I honestly wouldn't be surprised if tomorrow he ignored the baby completely.   He's had over 5 whole years of us all to himself....definitely going to be an adjustment for him to have to share our attention.

I was reading a bedtime story to him tonight and found myself getting all weepy realizing it's our last night as a family of 3.   It made me a little sad to think about actually as I looked into my boy's big brown eyes and kissed him goodnight....his world is about to change drastically.   Yet, I'm excited that tomorrow we will finally meet the one that will fill the 4th chair at our dining table.   The other seat in the car...and the other room in our house.


Here is me at 33 weeks:
 And again at 35 weeks:
And again at 36 weeks:
 And 37 weeks:

I'll have to take a picture before I leave the house tomorrow and at the hospital :)

I can't quite possibly explain all the thoughts and emotions I'm feeling right now.  It's a jumble of calm and anxiety and peace and list checking...all topped with a heaping helping of "holy crap this is really happening in like 10 hours".

I better try and get some sleep.

Ha.




2 comments:

Kelly said...

Holy belly mama! I'd say that's one big belly!

I heard the news... CONGRATULATIONS! Can't wait to see cute baby pics on the blog soon!

k said...

HOLY COW!

BY NOW YOU HAVE A BABY!

Congratulations to you!