Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Whore-Moans

I know I haven't written in a while...life has been nutty here lately. Yesterday was my first official day of working from home, although I did have to go into the office for a bit - and same with today. I've been super busy tying up last minute loose ends at work and trying to get myself organized here at home, both for work AND for this baby that is coming in like THREE WEEKS (or less - or more - who knows). You guys seriously, how is it possible that it's so close?
Part of me is feeling like this whole thing just whizzed by...and another part of me is ready for this pregnancy to be over. I want my body back.
Today was a rough day. I was achey and tired and having alot of braxton hicks contractions throughout yesterday and today. I found myself getting frustrated because there are so many things I want to do and physically I'm just not capable. I keep having to sit and rest because my body starts complaining, and my poor feet are so swollen and telling me to take a break already. I'm so extremely stubborn that I have a really hard time not being able to physically do all that I want to do. Thank GOD I was never put on bedrest because I'd be a terrible candidate.
Hubs and I were tidying up the house this evening because my brother and his family were coming over and for some strange reason I ended up bursting into tears for no reason at all. It was like I suddenly just felt completely overwhelmed and physically exhausted and so uncomfortable that I just had to let-it-out...I ended up sobbing in the bathroom, not sure WHY I was sobbing, but my emotions just go the best of me. Poor hubs - had no idea what was going on and neither did I really. I hate that! The hormones just took over and there was nothing I could do to stop how I was feeling. I washed my face and gathered myself together and then my sister in law walked in...saw my face and said "what's wrong..something is wrong...what's going on?"
and of course I AGAIN burst right into tears and just said "I don't know!"
and she nodded knowingly and said "oh honey, you're PREGNANT..and you're at the end which is the toughest part"
My brother just hugged me and proceeded to go into the kitchen and make dinner. My neices all were so sweet and just asked if they could do anything or if I needed anything and Carie just kept telling them to give me some space and let me have my moment.
Ahhhhhhh - it was so weird - but nice that they all understood and let me just BE emotional, you know? I hate not having control over myself like that...it makes me nuts. Carie warned me it'll probably be worse once the kid is actually here, so I should be prepared to just have emotional moments for no reason at all.
Could pregnancy be ANY wierder?

Anyway - Carie helped me get the crib all together tonight so I need to take pictures of that...it's FABULOUS! And I owe you all another belly pic as well because I'm frickin huge at this point.

Off to bed now...although sleep has been so sketchy lately, I'm surprised I don't need toothpicks to prop open my eyelids.

Ciao!

3 comments:

Joanna said...

Yea, you're back! As for the crying, be prepared. You're officially fowarned.
Before Kids (BK) I wasn't much of 'crier'. After kids (AK) I'm the sappy nut who'll cry at a commercial, a cute pregnant lady at the store, or even the news. I've even had such a good sob at a movie theatre that the people next to me moved :)
Let it out..it always feels better when you're done.
Hope today is better..
Ps. Be speedy with the crib pictures, I've dying to see what you've done with that awesome fabric.

samantha jo campen said...

DUDE! I was WONDERING where you were!

Oh yes, the sobbing. Remember it well. My favorite was going from laughing to crying without any warning. Good times.

And you will cry like that after the baby is born. Trust me. I cried watching 24 because those terrorists were someone's BABIES! THEIR POOR MOTHER OMG!

Congrats on the crib. Ours still needs to be ordered. Sigh.

Can't wait for pics!

Kelly said...

Ohhhh! Crib pictures! Alison told be the bedding is BEAUTIFUL!! I can't wait to see them.

Emotions. Yeap, be ready. My mother thought I would crack up after the girls were born so early. She literally told the nurses in the hospital, "if she show ANY emotion at all, have her sedated." My good 'ol Mom. =) You're bound to feel emotional. This is a huge event. You're nearing the finish line and the prize will be so worth it.

Glad you're back. I was starting to worry about you.